He said that in order to treat the cysts properly he needed to do a biopsy on a couple of them and send them off to a lab. That way he'll know exactly what he's dealing with and how to properly fix the problem.
So I agree to have him do the biopsy right then so we could get the ball rolling. I had NO idea it was going to be that painful or bloody! Now the biopsies I've heard of involved a long slender needle being injected and a small amount of fluid/tissue would be extracted. Since my cysts are not filled with fluid he had to use a biopsy plug.
That is a tortue device if ever there was one. OUCH to the mother freaking 10th degree! He had to take two tissue samples and blood literally was pouring down the left side of my body. My heart was beating a million miles a minute and felt like it was going to explode out of my chest. I'm nervous to hear what we find out. He did say that to do surgery would cost me at least $5000 and the biopsy alone was $500. FUDGE! I hate never having enough money.
So needless to say today I'm sore, grouchy and feeling uber depressed. I got a phone call this morning from the secretary of our family Dr. She said it was time for me to come in and get an updated tetanus shot,check my cholesterol levels, and to see if I've done anything about being morbidly obese. Then she gave me a lecture about how being obese increases the odds of developing diabetes. As soon as I got off the phone I just burst into tears. I feel like I've been working my tail off at changing my eating and exercising. She just came across as completely uncompassionate and rude.
I'm almost 10 months into crossfit and today I just felt like a big fat failure. Am I ever going to get my body in shape? Will my hard work ever pay off?
To top off the fun times, my husband starts his night job next week. I'm scared of my life being ripped apart at the seams. My health, financial, marriage, etc.
Here's hoping for something positive to happen. I don't know how much more of this I can take.