Wednesday, May 29, 2013

50 burpees......second time around

Our Memorial Day weekend was busy.  Hubby and I spent all three days outside setting our patio.  The weather was finally cooperating.  The bricks we used were 25 lbs each and the sand bags were 50 lbs each.  We set about 1/3 of the patio before my husband decided he didn't like how it was turning out.  We then tore apart everything we had set and started over.  I calculated that I hauled a little over 10,000 pounds of bricks and sand during those 3 days.  I would get in a squat stance when picking up the bricks and sand.  I hurt my back about 13 years ago and I have to be really careful when I carry anything heavy.  All I know is I got killer workouts in on Saturday, Sunday and Monday.  I took a break on Tuesday.  My body needed to recover.  I was so sore and I could tell that my energy levels were totally depleted. 

Today is Wednesday....a normal CrossFit day.  Instead of going to class I did 50 burpees at home.  I have to attend a performance at my son's elementary school and it's super important to him that I be there.  I timed my 50 burpees just like I did last time.  I finished 50 burpees in 11 minutes and 51 seconds last time.  Today I was able to get through them in 9 minutes and 31 seconds.  That's almost 2 and a half minutes faster!!  I was beyond shocked to see how much time I was able to shave off.  Now last time I did 50 burpees I also did a small kettlebell workout and my coaches were not happy with me.  They lectured me that "less is more".  So, I'm going to heed their advice and not stress about doing more.  I might take a nice leisure walk with my hubby after dinner though. 

My crossfit is closed the rest of this week.  They're packing up and heading to the CrossFit Regionals to support the other crossfitters. 

I will do another at home workout on Friday and will resume my classes at the box next week. 

My goal for the rest of this week is to stay on top of my hunger so I can continue to make smart and healthy choices.  I will weigh in and measure on June 1st and will report my findings.

Friday, May 24, 2013

Running, donuts and crying

Have I ever mentioned that I hate running?  I have?  Well I'm going to say it again, I HATE RUNNINGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Like super hate it.  Ugh!  Today was a very very tough day for me at crossfitcda. 

Let me start off by saying that I can't afford a crossfit membership unless I clean house for my parents twice a month and donate plasma.  Donating plasma definitely wipes me out.  So I'm not sure if today was so hard because I gave plasma yesterday or if it was just really hard in general. 

We started off with a 400 meter run and then did all sorts of different lunges back and forth across the gym floor.  I watch the other people and it just seems to easy for them.  I wonder how well they'd do these exercises if they had 90 pounds of extra flesh on their bodies.  It irritates me that some of the moves we do are literally impossible for me because of my extra weight.  The padding keeps me from contorting my body in the way I want.  I must say that I didn't really notice before I started crossfit, just how much my fat gets in the way.  The more I'm there, the more angry I get that I ever let myself get to this point.  I know I know......eventually it'll come off, I understand that.  I really do, but for now I'm angry and frustrated.

Our skill set today was front squats with a barbell and adding weight to it with each set that we did.  The way I had to hold my arms seemed very awkward to me.  This movement definitely didn't come naturally for me.  It's been fun to learn all these new movements.  I kind of feel like a bit of a bad ass when I use the barbell.  haha 

Our WOD was to run 800 meters, then do three rounds of

15 ring dips (I did push ups)

20 walking lunges

after you did three rounds of those then you finished off the WOD with another 400 meter run.

Most people finished between 5 and 8 minutes.  It took me 15 minutes to complete it.  Derek asked if I wanted to modify the workout and cut it down a bit, but I said no.  I really wanted to say yes, but at the same time, I know I need to keep pushing myself way out of my comfort zone.   

By the time I'd finished most people had already stretched out and were leaving.  I was on the verge of a full fledged cry-a-thon three different times.  I've never pushed myself this hard.  These workouts are so incredibly painful and for some reason when I get to where I don't think I can do another lunge, I feel the need to cry.  I'd rather chew my own arm off than cry.  I avoid crying at all costs.  I'll bite the inside of my cheeks so the pain will distract me from crying.  For some reason crossfit brings out the tears in me.  How aggravating!

I suppose I should be happy that I completed the workout......and I guess I am......sorta.  Today I just feel like the outcast who can't keep up and it's disheartening.   Oh well.  Upward and onward.

As I was driving home I passed a grocery store that is about a mile from my house.  Each time I drive by it, the reader board catches my eye.  I tend to drive by each time it flashes it's sale on donuts.  Oh my goodness I love donuts.  It's weird for me to pass the grocery store while I dream of eating donuts all the while my body is throbbing with pain and agony from my workout.  I suppose each time I resist the temptation of quitting or eating several donuts, I should be glad that I'm changing my life and those burdensome chains don't hold me down anymore.

Tonight my crossfit is offering free babysitting from 6:30-8:30.  So hubby and I are going to have a couple hours to ourselves while the kids play. 

Have a wonderful Memorial Day weekend.♥

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Fran Pictures

So I told you they pulled out the blasted camera and took pictures.  I decided that instead of freaking out about how fat I looked in the pictures, I'm going to relish them because someday when I've reached my destination I can look through all the pictures and see just how far I've really come.  I'm the big one, with the black pants and green shirt......the one with the double ass.  ;)

So this first picture is us listening to Derek while he showed us the proper form to do the thrusters.
Here I was resting between hollow rocks and barbell push presses.

Me and my thick thighs waiting to do the push presses.
Here I am doing thrusters for Fran.
I use the rings to do my modified pull-ups.
Wanting to die, my arms hurt so bad!
I tucked my shirt into my pants because when my arms go above my head my shirt comes up and exposes my nasty Pillsbury belly.  Ew!
I feel so exposed having these pics out there floating around cyber space.  On the other hand it's also great motivation for me to keep going, because I hate the way I look and this makes me want to stay on the path to health and fitness.


For those of you who are not familiar with the WOD Fran, consider yourself lucky.  She's a beast who will wipe the gym with your behind.  I got introduced to her today.  Many of the WOD's at CrossFit have girl names and Fran is one of them. 

Fran is 21 reps 15 reps and 9 reps of thrusters and pull-ups. 

Thrusters are when you are in a deep squat and you're holding the bar on your shoulders and you thrust upwards with your hips and drive the barbell over your head. 
Doing 21 of those in a row felt like my entire body had been lit on fire.  Since I'm not strong enough to do actual pull-ups, I use the rings and do a modified version. 
I was able to complete the workout in 5:33.  Derek said that if we finish in under 5 minutes while doing it modified, then it's time to add more weight and or upgrade the pull-ups.  I bet next time Fran comes around I'm able to add some weight on my 35 pound bar. 
My arms feel like rubber.  I lifted my hand to tuck a stray hair behind my ear and it felt like a 100 pounds.  haha 
So while I was at Crossfit they pulled out a big ass camera and started snapping pictures of us doing our warmup and workouts.  UGH!!!  Pictures are something I fear greatly!  They always post pictures on facebook, so I know that within a few hours my fattie self with be available for all to see.  Kill me, kill me now.  Now that I'm thinking about it, I realized I signed a waiver for them to take and post pictures of me when I signed up for bootcamp.  Dang it, what was I thinking?!  I wasn't thinking, I was shaking in my boots with terror of just being in the CrossFit building.   *smacks head on brick wall over and over and over and........*


Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Death by kettlebells

Today's WOD kicked my rear oh so bad.  We did a 9 minute warmup.  The goal was to use kettlebells constantly for 9 solid stops or breaks.  I was wishing I'd grabbed a lighter bell within 60 seconds of the warmup.  My upper arms were on fire! 

Note: The gal is this picture is not me. 

For a skill set we did dead lifts.  Although I was able to deadlift 150 lbs last week, Derek had me keep the weight at 115lbs so I could concentrate on form.  I was hoping to see if I could of add more weight than last week, but alas I suppose form is far more important at this point.  Wrong form equals injuries and I definitely want to steer clear of those. 

Our WOD was 12 minutes AMRAP (as many rounds/reps as possible)

15 American kettlebell swings

12 hand release pushups

9 box jumps

It doesn't look hard.  It doesn't sound hard.  The first two rounds weren't hard.  Once I started my third round I wanted to die.  Dying would be less painful that what I was doing.  haha   I was able to just finish 6 rounds when the 12 minutes were up.  We had to write our scores on the board.  I didn't come in dead last, but I believe I was 2nd to last AND I did box step ups instead of jumps.  It's so hard to jump very high when you have lots of extra weight literally weighing you down.  Oh well.  Someday I'll get there, right?!

I've been slacking a bit with Paleo eating.  I haven't been totally off the wagon, but I definitely need to clean up my eating and get back on 100%.  I feel so much better when I do and my energy is through the roof. 

My inlaws are coming to visit in about 7 weeks.  I get so much anxiety when they visit.  I love my father in law dearly, but my mother in law is a monster.  She's so incredibly mean and rude.  She's loud, obnoxious and likes to cut me down.  She makes comments on my weight every year they visit.  She asked me a couple years ago if her son even loved me anymore because I'd gotten so fat.  Who does that?  I'm a quiet person by nature and hate to "rock the boat".  I've never really stood up for myself where she's concerned.  That crap isn't going to fly this year.  I feel strong mentally and I'm stronger physically.  I know I'm doing something good for my health and if she says anything, I'm going to put her in her place.  That being said.....I'm still feeling super anxious. 

Friday, May 17, 2013


I had quite the battle in my head today and didn't want to go to class.  I did and I didn't.  I kept hearing voices saying that I wasn't good enough, it was going to be too hard, I was going to fail.  On the same note, I'd also hear that I could do it, it would be worth the hard work, I'm getting stronger.  Back and forth all morning.  I felt like I was going crazy!  I ended up going and I'm glad I did.

We started off doing a 400 meter run.  I was able to run with the group the entire time!!!!!! ME!  The fat girl!!  A few people passed me but for the most part I was right in the middle of the group the entire way.  YAY!!  Coach D (Derek) told me he could tell I was getting stronger and I can't even tell you how much I needed to hear that today. 

After running we got a partner and tossed heavy medicine balls back and forth to each other.  Next we got on the floor and locked feed together and one person would grab the ball lift it over their head while their back was on the floor then sit up and hand the ball to their sorta resembled a teeter totter when we got the hang of it. 

Next we did back squats and hollow rocks.  This was my 1st time doing back squats.  We used a barbell and added weights to both sides.  Then we put the bar on the back of our necks and did deep squats.  I had a bit of trouble with the form, but in the end I felt like I got the hang of it. 

  This 8 second video gives you an idea of what hollow rocks are.

Our WOD was 150 wall balls with a partner.  One person held a chin up position while the other person did as many wall balls as they could.  Then we'd switch.  They were so tough!!!  By the end I could feel my heart was racing and catching my breath seemed difficult. 

We had a long cool down and stretch session which felt horrible and amazing all at the same time.  It's painful and yet it feels great.....CrossFit is full of contradictions it seems. 

Hubby and I will be working on building our back patio this weekend, I'll be shocked if we complete it.  At least I know I'll be getting a great workout both days.

I need to eat some lunch before I go grocery shopping or I'll end up buying something I'll deeply regret.  Hope everyone has a lovely weekend.

Monday, May 13, 2013

bear crawls and burpees, oh my!

Hope everyone had a nice Mother's Day weekend.  We went to church and then we grabbed the dog and we all went down by the lake to enjoy a picnic lunch.  My kids each made me handmade cards and gifts, they were darling.  =)

I felt great walking into CrossFit today.  Normally I get super nervous the entire car ride there, but today I felt at peace.  We started off doing wheelbarrow walks, but I'm not strong enough to do those quite yet, so they had me do three 30 second rounds of bear crawls.  Those are no fun, like not even a tiny bit.  nope.  not fun.

We did push ups, good mornings, Turkish get-ups, and 20" box step ups with two kettle bells held under our chins.  I did 15" box step ups.  The 20" boxes are insanely high for this point at least.  I met another newbie and we were both wiped out after all the skill sets. 

These are the Turkish get-up's

Our WOD was to do 3 clean and jerks and 8 burpees every minute on the minute (EMOTM) for 10 minutes.  I had mine modified a bit to my fitness level.  Burpees are so incredibly hard to do when you're heavy.  Having extra stomach fat and thigh fat really gets in the way of the movement and makes it incredibly hard when you have to jump back into position to stand back up.  Being a thick girl sucks big time. 

I can see and feel a difference in my clothes, but I'm impatient.  I want to wake up tomorrow and have magically dropped 6 sizes.  I just don't understand why that doesn't  happen.  hehe

I had a small bit of dessert last night with my family and my mom, but today it's back on the Paleo bandwagon.  Time to get something to eat, I'm famished!

Friday, May 10, 2013


It's been a few days since I've blogged.  I've been taking advantage of the gorgeous weather to do all my planting.  I got a ton of flowers planted and started a container garden.  I used a half of a whisky barrel and planted organic rainbow carrots and 5 gallon buckets to plant sweet bell peppers and jalapenos.  I also got 3 huge organic beefsteak tomato plants in containers as well.  Can't wait to see how the veggies do! 

I woke up feeling pretty awful.  Super sore throat, tummy ache, and stuffy nose.  I took some meds, drank a chocolate sunbutter protein shake and went to Crossfit despite my brain telling me to stay home and rest in bed. 

Our warm up was guessed it....running.  We ran 400 meters.  I was shocked that I was able to run the entire way and was only behind the rest of the group by about 5 seconds.  How and when did that happen?  Don't get me wrong, I was super tired and breathing like I was going to die, but I did it and kept up.  Yeehaw!  I can feel my endurance increasing and it's so exciting! 

Next we did our skill set, which was deadlifts.  The first time I only used 20 lbs and was focusing more on form than weight.  Today I was able to do several sets of 150 lbs.  I know that to some that is not much weight, but for someone like me who hasn't done any type of lifting in her life except to lift food to her lips, this was quite exciting.  =)

Our WOD was 5 rounds of

25 double unders ( I had to do 75 single unders)

18 overhead kettle bell swings

12   20" box jumps (I do 15" box steps)

For some reason I had it in my head that I only had to do 3 rounds and by the end of the third round I could feel all my energy being drained away.  Catching my breath seemed almost impossible and I was drenched.  As I was finishing up the last two box steps I looked up at the white board and realized I still had 2 more rounds to go.  FUDGE!!!!  I could feel tears start creep up and told myself to just shut up and not cry and finish the flipping WOD.  I finished in 12min 21 seconds.  To say I was wiped out would be the understatement of the year.  I'm glad I went despite not feeling good this morning.  My throat still hurts like a mother, but other than that I feel fine.  This weekend will be spent outdoors so we can continue working on our back patio.  Fingers crossed I get some sun.....I'm tired of being so pale I almost look neon white. 

Happy Mother's Day to all you mom's!

Monday, May 6, 2013

A hiking we will go......

First off I just have to say how much I'm enjoying our beautiful weather.  Mid/high 70's, clear skies, just perfect!  Today might get up to around 80 degrees, love it!  This weekend my husband and I spend both days outside prepping our backyard for a patio.  We tore down the back deck last year since it was rotting.  Under the deck was tons and tons of rocks about the size of radishes.  We'd rake the rocks in piles then shovel the piles into the wheel barrow and dump them on a different part of the property.  We also went to Home Depot and got 2500 lbs of cement walking stones/bricks and 1000 lbs of sand.  At first we were going to make several trips to Home Depot so we could get all our stones but we realized what a huge endeavor that was going to be.  These stones are 1 square foot and weigh 25 lbs each.  We had to hand stack them from the pallets in the store to flat carts, from the flat carts to the trailer, from the trailer to the backyard.  Even after all we got this weekend, we still needed 215 more stones. 

Yesterday as I was shoveling rock into the wheel barrow my husband told me he was shocked at my endurance level.  He said that he can tell that I'm stronger and have more stamina than he's ever seen.  That made me feel great!

I was hoping to see the new and improved Crossfit building today but they're still not quite finished.  On facebook last night they said that we were to meet at the building, then we'd all run to the city park together which is about 11-12 blocks away and do our WOD and then run back.  Ummmmmmmm by the time I'd be able to huff it to the park they'd be done with the workout.  Not to mention......I'm still waaay too self conscious to be running around downtown on a day like today in my workout clothes.  I really need to start working on my running.  Ugh!  I hate that I feel like I can't participate because it's so hard for me. 

So because there was no way in hell I was going to shake my double ass all the way to the city park, I decided to take the dog on a 3.3 mile hike.  It's the same place we went as a family a couple weeks ago.  It's fairly steep and is an incredible least it is for a person who has a lot of extra weight they're carrying.  It felt so good to be outside in the sun, listening to the birds and just smelling all the wonderful smells of spring.  

What I'm eating today:

Breakfast~turkey sausage and eggs

Lunch~chocolate protein shake

Snack~apple w/ almond butter

Dinner~chicken fajita stir fry....basically fajita filling w/o the tortillas.  =)

Friday, May 3, 2013

Inches Lost Pounds Gained

It's FRIDAYYYYYYYYYY!!  Can you tell I'm excited?  This week felt like it was never going to ever!  The weather this weekend looks like it's going to be in the high 70's, low 80's and clear blue skies.  Does is get any better than that? 

I love where I live....isn't it pretty!?

I took out my little weight loss diary/book and saw that I last weighed and measured on April 3rd, so since today is the 3rd I figured it was time to do it again.  Here are the official results.........

I'm up 3 whole pounds.   =(    I've heard many people say that it's common to gain a bit your first month of CrossFit but I figured I'd be the exception to the rule simply because I have so much weight to lose.

My neck, bust, and waist all stayed the same but I lost an inch on my upper arms, an inch on each thigh, 2 inches on my hips and 3/4 inch on my calves.  I'm happy that I'm at least losing inches....despite seeing the number on the scale go up. 

I made the yummiest meatballs last night for dinner.  I used 2 1/2 lbs of ground lean turkey, added a finely minced onion, a few cloves of minced garlic, salt, pepper, a little sage, 3 eggs and a couple cups of chopped fresh spinach leaves. I mixed it up then got out a cookie sheet and lined it w/ parchment paper and made 12 giant meatballs.  I baked them for about 45 minutes at 350 degrees.  I then heated up some of the paleo spaghetti sauce I canned and added just a smidge of fresh grated parmesan cheese (I know I know....not totally Paleo).  I poured the sauce over a couple meatballs  and finished off the meal with a large side salad.  It was divine!  I'm so having it tonight for dinner again.  It was just too yummy. 

For the next couple of days my CrossFit will be closed.  They're tearing down a wall to expand it.  I'm excited to see what it looks like on Monday.    Hope you all have a wonderful weekend.♥

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

Bumps along the road......

Have you ever been sore after a workout?  I've been in almost a constant state of soreness since I started CrossFit, but what I experienced yesterday was another beast entirely.  Monday's WOD was crazy hard.  I came home took a shower and a couple anti inflammatory meds.  Later that night I took a warm bath because I could feel my muscles tightening big time.  I went to bed but I woke up every time I moved or stretched because the pain in my muscles was so awful.  When I woke up on Tuesday I took another hot bath and a couple more pills and drank tons of water.  As the day progressed my muscles continued to tighten, to the point where I couldn't walk normally and getting into the sitting position or standing up from sitting caused tears to spring to my eyes.  I went for a small walk after dinner with my husband in desperate hopes to loosen things up and maybe help with the pain.  It helped for a little while and then was just as bad as before.  I took another hot bath before I went to bed. 

I'm still crazy sore today, but definitely less than yesterday.  I have to admit, it scared me!  I went online and researched it and it looks like I pushed myself a bit too far on Monday.  Being sore isn't a bad thing, but being so sore it's debilitating, is not good at all. 

I started off eating great today.  A small cube steak pan fried in a little coconut oil and a couple eggs.  It was great and very satisfying.  As the day progressed I was hit with all sorts of cravings.  I ended up eating 3 chocolate chip cookies for lunch, more later for a snack and then I made pizzas on the grill for dinner.  SOOOO not paleo.   *sigh*  Today I'm feeling down.  It was so beautiful here today.  I wanted to go on a long walk with the dog, but instead I ended up canning 10 quarts of paleo spaghetti sauce.  I suppose it wasn't a total loss.  Tomorrow is another day.
  I need to make a plan for tomorrow before it gets out of control like today did.  I have to take my son to a super early dentist apt and then I'm off to my mom's to clean her house. 

If any of you have any suggestions on what to do about sore muscles, I'd love to hear it. 

Ain't that the truth!