I feel like whenever I blog I tend to say the same things.....I woke up and didn't want to go to crossfit. haha But it's always the truth. It was a cold and dark morning and staying in my warm bed and catching some extra Zzzz's seemed much more appealing than putting on workout clothes and going to the gym.
I guess the good news is that I DID go and got my butt handed to me on a silver platter.
We started off with ladder drills. This was my 1st time doing them. They were actually kind of fun. They put a rope ladder on the ground and we had to do various things like jump squatting on each rung, or hopping in and out of the squares etc etc.
For the skill set we did 4 sets of 5 Turkish get-ups on each arm. After the 1st two rounds we did four 20 second plank holds, then more Turkish get-ups, followed by 4 more plank holds. My core, my legs, and my arms were shaking. My muscles were TIRED!
Our WOD was awful. I felt nauseous half way through. Thankfully I didn't get sick. In groups of two we did (all with weighted bar bells)
50 squat thrusters
20 walking lunges
50 overhead squats
20 walking lunges
50 back squats
20 walking lunges
My partner and I finished in 9:54
I just wanted to lie on the ground in my puddle of sweat and not move. I'm so so so tired!! That WOD was a fine line from my breaking point. I could feel myself get a little teary eyed towards the end, which always tells me that I hit my limit.
I'm going to take a long, warm, bubble bath and possibly a nap before the kids get home from school. I think I deserve it.
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Friday, September 27, 2013
Wednesday, September 18, 2013
6 week Paleo challenge starts TOMORROW
After getting pissed and cranky about the Paleo Challenge rules at my crossfit I have decided to just do my own thing. I'll be starting my 6 week challenge tomorrow. I leave for Boise on Halloween and that will be the day after the challenge is over. Perfect timing! So I won't get to win any money or prizes or even be part of the group who is recognized as being part of this diet eating lifestyle. So what. The truth is everything I'm doing is for me. I should be glad to do it just for my own health and well being. That should be my true reward. Still trying to convince myself that money isn't everything. *sigh*
I felt pretty good this morning despite the chaos of trying to get all three kids out of bed, dressed, fed, lunches made, hair brushed, and out the door before their buses arrived. Sometimes I feel like I should have the The Flight Of The Bumble Bee playing in the background.
Crossfit was a challenge today. Our WOD was in honor of a gentleman who was killed in action while serving our country. I believe he served with Derek. I think it's neat that crossfit as a whole honor men and women that have been killed while serving our country.
Our WOD was 5 rounds:
12 deadlifts
9 hang power cleans
6 push jerks
All of the lighter bar bells were taken so I went with a bar that I thought might be too heavy and used just 5 pound weights on either side just to keep the bar off the floor......55 pounds in all.
Surprisingly I was able to complete the WOD using 55lbs instead of what I wanted to use which was around 45lbs.
I'm exhausted and my arms and hamstrings feel like rubber.
I need to go to Walmart today and get myself a notebook. I want to start keeping a very detailed log of my workouts and the weights I'm using so I can refer to it as I continue on this crossfit journey as well as keep a detailed record of what I'm eating every day. I will take my measurements tomorrow morning and again on Halloween (6 weeks later).
I think since today is my last day of eating nonPaleo foods, I'm going to get a Starbucks Pumpkin Spice Latte and maybe even have pizza for dinner. Naughty naughty!
I felt pretty good this morning despite the chaos of trying to get all three kids out of bed, dressed, fed, lunches made, hair brushed, and out the door before their buses arrived. Sometimes I feel like I should have the The Flight Of The Bumble Bee playing in the background.
Crossfit was a challenge today. Our WOD was in honor of a gentleman who was killed in action while serving our country. I believe he served with Derek. I think it's neat that crossfit as a whole honor men and women that have been killed while serving our country.
Our WOD was 5 rounds:
12 deadlifts
9 hang power cleans
6 push jerks
All of the lighter bar bells were taken so I went with a bar that I thought might be too heavy and used just 5 pound weights on either side just to keep the bar off the floor......55 pounds in all.
Surprisingly I was able to complete the WOD using 55lbs instead of what I wanted to use which was around 45lbs.
I'm exhausted and my arms and hamstrings feel like rubber.
I need to go to Walmart today and get myself a notebook. I want to start keeping a very detailed log of my workouts and the weights I'm using so I can refer to it as I continue on this crossfit journey as well as keep a detailed record of what I'm eating every day. I will take my measurements tomorrow morning and again on Halloween (6 weeks later).
I think since today is my last day of eating nonPaleo foods, I'm going to get a Starbucks Pumpkin Spice Latte and maybe even have pizza for dinner. Naughty naughty!
Friday, July 26, 2013
At the beginning (photos)
Ok, so on March 25th I started my crossfit journey. It's been 4 months now and so many things have changed. My outlook on life is much better. Overall I feel happier. For the first time in, I don't know how long, I actually feel proud of what I'm doing. Sometimes after I get out of the shower I look in the mirror and am still horrified at the reflection. I'll look at myself trying to see any positive changes. I don't find many. There are times where I feel just as huge and when I started. Sometimes I even let those negative thoughts pull me down and I start to doubt the whole process.
Yesterday I pulled out some photos I took a few years ago. When I started crossfit I was the same weight (within 3 lbs) and same exact clothing size as I was in the "before" photos. When I looked at them and then looked at the picture I had my son take a few days ago, I could see a huge difference. Anyway, without further ado, here are my before photos.
Here is the photo I took 4 days ago.
So I printed these pictures today and brought them in with me today to crossfit. I wanted to show my trainers just how much my body has changed in the last 4 months. They were shocked and super happy for me. It's easy not to see it when the changes are gradual. After I showed Meagan, she asked if, at my 6 month mark, would I be up for writing a bio/testimony for them to post on their blog and to put on their website for others to see along with pics from the beginning, 4 months in and then 6 months in. She said a lot of people refuse to even consider crossfit because they're so out of shape and or heavy and that them reading my testimony and seeing my photos would be an inspiration to others who maybe are considering it, but are doubtful they will succeed.
I'm overwhelmed and honored that they'd even ask me! The girl who had a complete and epic meltdown on Wednesday....they want her to inspire others! I must say that them even asking me makes me want to make sure I keep my toes in line and work my hardest during these next two months. I feel super motivated now. =)
Today's workout was SO much better than Wednesday's. We started off with line drills back and forth. Then Derek showed us how to do dips on the Olympic rings. I am neither light enough, nor strong enough to do them, so he had me practicing push-ups and planks. Our WOD was 50 dips (he had me do 35 push ups) a 400 meter farmer walk, and 50 over head squats. I carried 25 lb dumbbells in each hand as I walked 400 meters as fast as I could. They didn't feel too bad at first, but by the time I was almost done, I was having a super hard time not letting the dumbbells drop. I'm thrilled that I didn't stop and I didn't put down the bells until I got back inside the building. My forearms were on FIRE! I used about a 25lb pipe to do the over head squats. Most people used weighted barbells. Those squats were brutal, but I finished in 11 minutes and 26 seconds. I felt great and was pumped!
Tomorrow I'll be doing a C25K run and Sunday I plan on being lazy lazy lazy. Can't wait! On a good note, hubby and I are working through our issues and he's going to get the help he needs. He didn't cheat on me and never has, he just wasn't behaving as a married man ought to behave. I'll leave it at that.
I hope you all have a really relaxing and wonderful weekend.
Yesterday I pulled out some photos I took a few years ago. When I started crossfit I was the same weight (within 3 lbs) and same exact clothing size as I was in the "before" photos. When I looked at them and then looked at the picture I had my son take a few days ago, I could see a huge difference. Anyway, without further ado, here are my before photos.
Here is the photo I took 4 days ago.
So I printed these pictures today and brought them in with me today to crossfit. I wanted to show my trainers just how much my body has changed in the last 4 months. They were shocked and super happy for me. It's easy not to see it when the changes are gradual. After I showed Meagan, she asked if, at my 6 month mark, would I be up for writing a bio/testimony for them to post on their blog and to put on their website for others to see along with pics from the beginning, 4 months in and then 6 months in. She said a lot of people refuse to even consider crossfit because they're so out of shape and or heavy and that them reading my testimony and seeing my photos would be an inspiration to others who maybe are considering it, but are doubtful they will succeed.
I'm overwhelmed and honored that they'd even ask me! The girl who had a complete and epic meltdown on Wednesday....they want her to inspire others! I must say that them even asking me makes me want to make sure I keep my toes in line and work my hardest during these next two months. I feel super motivated now. =)
Today's workout was SO much better than Wednesday's. We started off with line drills back and forth. Then Derek showed us how to do dips on the Olympic rings. I am neither light enough, nor strong enough to do them, so he had me practicing push-ups and planks. Our WOD was 50 dips (he had me do 35 push ups) a 400 meter farmer walk, and 50 over head squats. I carried 25 lb dumbbells in each hand as I walked 400 meters as fast as I could. They didn't feel too bad at first, but by the time I was almost done, I was having a super hard time not letting the dumbbells drop. I'm thrilled that I didn't stop and I didn't put down the bells until I got back inside the building. My forearms were on FIRE! I used about a 25lb pipe to do the over head squats. Most people used weighted barbells. Those squats were brutal, but I finished in 11 minutes and 26 seconds. I felt great and was pumped!
Tomorrow I'll be doing a C25K run and Sunday I plan on being lazy lazy lazy. Can't wait! On a good note, hubby and I are working through our issues and he's going to get the help he needs. He didn't cheat on me and never has, he just wasn't behaving as a married man ought to behave. I'll leave it at that.
I hope you all have a really relaxing and wonderful weekend.
Monday, July 8, 2013
I didn't wear any pants!
How is it Monday already?! What a whirl wind of a week!! I'm still not completely well. I still have a lingering cough, but for the most part I'm feeling much better. We've spent most of this past week outdoors. It's been hot and sunny and really just perfect weather.
I've mentioned before that I have a very active husband and for most of the past 11 years of marriage I have chosen not to be active with him. I told myself that this year I was going to do everything he did. If he goes hiking, I go hiking, if he goes to the beach to swim then......GASP......I will put on a swimming suit and go to the beach to swim. The beach is the hardest for me. I haven't worn just a swimming suit to the beach since I was in grade school. I'd wear shorts over my suit to hide my thighs or a shirt to hide my tummy. Anyway we went to the beach last weekend and as soon as we got our chairs and umbrella set up, I quickly took off my shirt and pants. I stood there on the beach in nothing but my swimming suit and sunglasses. I looked around to see if anyone was going blind from all my grossness.....but no one seemed to notice, let alone give two craps.
As time went on that day I saw several people who were in much worse shape than I was....and they all ran around in their swimming suits without a care in the world. A few even wore bikinis!!!!! They didn't seem to care, so why do I? The best part of the day was swimming with my kids. They were tickled pink that I got in the water with them. This is what life is all about! Spending time with the ones you love, not sitting on the beach, wearing pants and stressing over how fat you are. For some reason I've had it in my head that unless you are perfect at something, you don't even try it. Ever since I was a small child, that's how I've felt about life.
Long story short, I went to the beach several times this past week and each time I've taken off my shirt and pants and have tried my best to not let my fears and insecurities cloud my thinking. I still hate how I look, but this is who I am today and I'm working on changing what I don't like. So until I become a major babe, I'm going to strut my white flabby dimpled legs at the beach. ;)
I did go to crossfit today. Today was beyond hard. I can tell that I don't have my full strength back from being so sick. The smallest things just wear me out completely. We started off with junkyard dog. I was ready to quit after that. Our skill set was 4 rounds of various kettle bell exercises. Again, would've loved to have grabbed my keys and headed home afterwards. Our WOD was 3 rounds of running 400 meters and 15 over head squats with a weighted bar. I used a super light bar. This was my first time doing over head squats, so the movement for me was more important than the weight.
We stood up at the white board while Jonathan filled us in on what the WOD entailed. He then told us that we were going to do a "warm up" run before we started the WOD. What the heck?! Nononononono NO NO NOOOOOOOOO!!! I wanted to cry. Running is my enemy! So we all lined up outside and did our warm up 400 meter run. Oh my goodness. I was spent by the time I made it back inside. I was the last one in, as usual.
As they counted down the seconds until we started the WOD I just kept praying that I wouldn't get sick. I was starting to already feel slightly nauseous. I ran 400 meters the 1st round, then did 15 OHS (over head squats) and then Meagan and Jonathan both told me to just run 200 meters the last two rounds. My 2nd round was painful. I got the worst stitch in my side while running. UGH!! My 3rd round brought out the tears again. My eyes started to water and I could feel a cry-a-thon start to build. I bit the insides of my cheeks as hard as I could to stop myself from crying. I finished my 3rd round in 11 min 38 seconds. I believe I got the worst time and I was the only one (I believe) who modified the run. So yeah....once again......I'm in dead last. Oh well. At least I showed up, I tried my best, and I did everything they asked me to do.
My in-laws arrive tomorrow. My anxiety is building with each approaching day. I feel like I'm going to throw up just thinking about it. I'm praying that God gives me peace of mind while they are here and that this would be an enjoyable visit unlike every other visit that's ever occurred thus far.
I've mentioned before that I have a very active husband and for most of the past 11 years of marriage I have chosen not to be active with him. I told myself that this year I was going to do everything he did. If he goes hiking, I go hiking, if he goes to the beach to swim then......GASP......I will put on a swimming suit and go to the beach to swim. The beach is the hardest for me. I haven't worn just a swimming suit to the beach since I was in grade school. I'd wear shorts over my suit to hide my thighs or a shirt to hide my tummy. Anyway we went to the beach last weekend and as soon as we got our chairs and umbrella set up, I quickly took off my shirt and pants. I stood there on the beach in nothing but my swimming suit and sunglasses. I looked around to see if anyone was going blind from all my grossness.....but no one seemed to notice, let alone give two craps.
As time went on that day I saw several people who were in much worse shape than I was....and they all ran around in their swimming suits without a care in the world. A few even wore bikinis!!!!! They didn't seem to care, so why do I? The best part of the day was swimming with my kids. They were tickled pink that I got in the water with them. This is what life is all about! Spending time with the ones you love, not sitting on the beach, wearing pants and stressing over how fat you are. For some reason I've had it in my head that unless you are perfect at something, you don't even try it. Ever since I was a small child, that's how I've felt about life.
Long story short, I went to the beach several times this past week and each time I've taken off my shirt and pants and have tried my best to not let my fears and insecurities cloud my thinking. I still hate how I look, but this is who I am today and I'm working on changing what I don't like. So until I become a major babe, I'm going to strut my white flabby dimpled legs at the beach. ;)
I did go to crossfit today. Today was beyond hard. I can tell that I don't have my full strength back from being so sick. The smallest things just wear me out completely. We started off with junkyard dog. I was ready to quit after that. Our skill set was 4 rounds of various kettle bell exercises. Again, would've loved to have grabbed my keys and headed home afterwards. Our WOD was 3 rounds of running 400 meters and 15 over head squats with a weighted bar. I used a super light bar. This was my first time doing over head squats, so the movement for me was more important than the weight.
We stood up at the white board while Jonathan filled us in on what the WOD entailed. He then told us that we were going to do a "warm up" run before we started the WOD. What the heck?! Nononononono NO NO NOOOOOOOOO!!! I wanted to cry. Running is my enemy! So we all lined up outside and did our warm up 400 meter run. Oh my goodness. I was spent by the time I made it back inside. I was the last one in, as usual.
As they counted down the seconds until we started the WOD I just kept praying that I wouldn't get sick. I was starting to already feel slightly nauseous. I ran 400 meters the 1st round, then did 15 OHS (over head squats) and then Meagan and Jonathan both told me to just run 200 meters the last two rounds. My 2nd round was painful. I got the worst stitch in my side while running. UGH!! My 3rd round brought out the tears again. My eyes started to water and I could feel a cry-a-thon start to build. I bit the insides of my cheeks as hard as I could to stop myself from crying. I finished my 3rd round in 11 min 38 seconds. I believe I got the worst time and I was the only one (I believe) who modified the run. So yeah....once again......I'm in dead last. Oh well. At least I showed up, I tried my best, and I did everything they asked me to do.
My in-laws arrive tomorrow. My anxiety is building with each approaching day. I feel like I'm going to throw up just thinking about it. I'm praying that God gives me peace of mind while they are here and that this would be an enjoyable visit unlike every other visit that's ever occurred thus far.
Friday, May 24, 2013
Running, donuts and crying
Have I ever mentioned that I hate running? I have? Well I'm going to say it again, I HATE RUNNINGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Like super hate it. Ugh! Today was a very very tough day for me at crossfitcda.
Let me start off by saying that I can't afford a crossfit membership unless I clean house for my parents twice a month and donate plasma. Donating plasma definitely wipes me out. So I'm not sure if today was so hard because I gave plasma yesterday or if it was just really hard in general.
We started off with a 400 meter run and then did all sorts of different lunges back and forth across the gym floor. I watch the other people and it just seems to easy for them. I wonder how well they'd do these exercises if they had 90 pounds of extra flesh on their bodies. It irritates me that some of the moves we do are literally impossible for me because of my extra weight. The padding keeps me from contorting my body in the way I want. I must say that I didn't really notice before I started crossfit, just how much my fat gets in the way. The more I'm there, the more angry I get that I ever let myself get to this point. I know I know......eventually it'll come off, I understand that. I really do, but for now I'm angry and frustrated.
Our skill set today was front squats with a barbell and adding weight to it with each set that we did. The way I had to hold my arms seemed very awkward to me. This movement definitely didn't come naturally for me. It's been fun to learn all these new movements. I kind of feel like a bit of a bad ass when I use the barbell. haha
Our WOD was to run 800 meters, then do three rounds of
15 ring dips (I did push ups)
20 walking lunges
after you did three rounds of those then you finished off the WOD with another 400 meter run.
Most people finished between 5 and 8 minutes. It took me 15 minutes to complete it. Derek asked if I wanted to modify the workout and cut it down a bit, but I said no. I really wanted to say yes, but at the same time, I know I need to keep pushing myself way out of my comfort zone.
By the time I'd finished most people had already stretched out and were leaving. I was on the verge of a full fledged cry-a-thon three different times. I've never pushed myself this hard. These workouts are so incredibly painful and for some reason when I get to where I don't think I can do another lunge, I feel the need to cry. I'd rather chew my own arm off than cry. I avoid crying at all costs. I'll bite the inside of my cheeks so the pain will distract me from crying. For some reason crossfit brings out the tears in me. How aggravating!
I suppose I should be happy that I completed the workout......and I guess I am......sorta. Today I just feel like the outcast who can't keep up and it's disheartening. Oh well. Upward and onward.
As I was driving home I passed a grocery store that is about a mile from my house. Each time I drive by it, the reader board catches my eye. I tend to drive by each time it flashes it's sale on donuts. Oh my goodness I love donuts. It's weird for me to pass the grocery store while I dream of eating donuts all the while my body is throbbing with pain and agony from my workout. I suppose each time I resist the temptation of quitting or eating several donuts, I should be glad that I'm changing my life and those burdensome chains don't hold me down anymore.
Tonight my crossfit is offering free babysitting from 6:30-8:30. So hubby and I are going to have a couple hours to ourselves while the kids play.
Have a wonderful Memorial Day weekend.♥
Let me start off by saying that I can't afford a crossfit membership unless I clean house for my parents twice a month and donate plasma. Donating plasma definitely wipes me out. So I'm not sure if today was so hard because I gave plasma yesterday or if it was just really hard in general.
We started off with a 400 meter run and then did all sorts of different lunges back and forth across the gym floor. I watch the other people and it just seems to easy for them. I wonder how well they'd do these exercises if they had 90 pounds of extra flesh on their bodies. It irritates me that some of the moves we do are literally impossible for me because of my extra weight. The padding keeps me from contorting my body in the way I want. I must say that I didn't really notice before I started crossfit, just how much my fat gets in the way. The more I'm there, the more angry I get that I ever let myself get to this point. I know I know......eventually it'll come off, I understand that. I really do, but for now I'm angry and frustrated.
Our skill set today was front squats with a barbell and adding weight to it with each set that we did. The way I had to hold my arms seemed very awkward to me. This movement definitely didn't come naturally for me. It's been fun to learn all these new movements. I kind of feel like a bit of a bad ass when I use the barbell. haha
Our WOD was to run 800 meters, then do three rounds of
15 ring dips (I did push ups)
20 walking lunges
after you did three rounds of those then you finished off the WOD with another 400 meter run.
Most people finished between 5 and 8 minutes. It took me 15 minutes to complete it. Derek asked if I wanted to modify the workout and cut it down a bit, but I said no. I really wanted to say yes, but at the same time, I know I need to keep pushing myself way out of my comfort zone.
By the time I'd finished most people had already stretched out and were leaving. I was on the verge of a full fledged cry-a-thon three different times. I've never pushed myself this hard. These workouts are so incredibly painful and for some reason when I get to where I don't think I can do another lunge, I feel the need to cry. I'd rather chew my own arm off than cry. I avoid crying at all costs. I'll bite the inside of my cheeks so the pain will distract me from crying. For some reason crossfit brings out the tears in me. How aggravating!
I suppose I should be happy that I completed the workout......and I guess I am......sorta. Today I just feel like the outcast who can't keep up and it's disheartening. Oh well. Upward and onward.
As I was driving home I passed a grocery store that is about a mile from my house. Each time I drive by it, the reader board catches my eye. I tend to drive by each time it flashes it's sale on donuts. Oh my goodness I love donuts. It's weird for me to pass the grocery store while I dream of eating donuts all the while my body is throbbing with pain and agony from my workout. I suppose each time I resist the temptation of quitting or eating several donuts, I should be glad that I'm changing my life and those burdensome chains don't hold me down anymore.
Tonight my crossfit is offering free babysitting from 6:30-8:30. So hubby and I are going to have a couple hours to ourselves while the kids play.
Have a wonderful Memorial Day weekend.♥
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