I went to bed super early last night. 7pm to be exact. I hoped that a ton of sleep would leave me feeling relaxed and refreshed. Instead I woke up feeling exhausted. My eyelids were not wanting to cooperate.
I made it to crossfit this morning. Huge accomplishment considering how I'm feeling physically and mentally. Everything we did felt impossibly difficult. I can tell such a big difference in my endurance and strength when I take a few days off.
Our warm up was 5 Turkish get ups on each side and then using a slightly heavier bell we did another 3 on each side.
Our skill set was all about pull ups and negative pull ups. Jonathan helped me get a super thick band and work on my negative pull ups. I felt like I was humiliating myself. I felt weak and it pissed me off! He told me he could tell how much better I'm getting and I just looked him straight in the eyes and in a sarcastic bitchy way said, "really?!" . This caused him to stammer a bit and collect himself. He said that he hadn't seen me in the last 6 weeks because he's been mostly doing evening classes but that he could see a difference in how I look since he last saw me. At that point he pretty much excused himself to go help some other people.
I feel really bad for being a jerk. I guess I just felt like he was blowing smoke up my rear. I still feel weak and fat and stupid and lame and and and.......
Maybe he really can tell a difference and I'm just cranky and being a negative nancy.
Anyhoo our WOD was to get in groups of 4. Two of us had to drag the sled down and back up the alley and then do 20 meter bear crawl and 10 native jump squats. We repeated everything twice.
I'm dead to the world after today's class. I hope I feel a lot more energy and strength come Friday and maybe I'll get the chance to apologize to Jonathan for being a snarky jerk.
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Wednesday, October 9, 2013
Thursday, July 18, 2013
Just not feeling it..........
What is wrong with me?! I feel like I'm in a mental and physical fog. I feel depressed and moody. I don't know if it's stress about my husband's job change, financial problems or what. I didn't go to crossfit on Monday because of my horrible sunburn. On Wednesday it looked like this....
I can't even describe the pain I was in. Nothing I put on it helped. I had to take Ibuprofen throughout the day just to get by. A friend called me and told me to try yellow mustard. To slather it on and let it dry. It sounded insane, but I was desperate enough to give it a go. Within 20 minutes most of the pain had gone away. Hurray! I didn't even care that I smelled like a walking deli. Today I was finally able to wear a bra again, so I went to crossfit. I will go again tomorrow. At least I'll be able to get in two workouts this week. Not what I was hoping for, but it is what it is.
I felt super run down during my workout. Almost like I was starting all over again. I felt weak, sick to my stomach, and just mentally not with it. Ugh! I hope this feeling is short lived, because I want to feel on top of the world again.
Next week I'm going to start my training for a 5K. I plan on training Tues, Thurs, and Saturday's. So with crossfit, I'll be "working out" 6 days a week. I'd really like to start seeing the lbs start coming off. Or at least my clothes start getting bigger. I have seen some changes, but not as many as I'd like. I did let my eating slack a bit while my in-laws were in town. It's time to get back into strict paleo.
On another note, I got an invite to attend our crossfit's annual beach party. I want to go....kind of....but the scared part of me is like, "THERE IS NO WAY ON EARTH I'M GOING TO GET INTO A SWIMMING SUIT WITH ALL THE OTHER CROSSFITTERS". How can I?!?!?!?! Everyone in their bikini's with their lean arms and legs.........yeah right! I'm pissed at myself that I refuse to go to a function that I would like to go to because I'm too self conscious. It makes me physically ill just thinking about going. I don't belong in that group of people! I belong under a rock. (can you tell i'm not very positive today?)
I can't even describe the pain I was in. Nothing I put on it helped. I had to take Ibuprofen throughout the day just to get by. A friend called me and told me to try yellow mustard. To slather it on and let it dry. It sounded insane, but I was desperate enough to give it a go. Within 20 minutes most of the pain had gone away. Hurray! I didn't even care that I smelled like a walking deli. Today I was finally able to wear a bra again, so I went to crossfit. I will go again tomorrow. At least I'll be able to get in two workouts this week. Not what I was hoping for, but it is what it is.
I felt super run down during my workout. Almost like I was starting all over again. I felt weak, sick to my stomach, and just mentally not with it. Ugh! I hope this feeling is short lived, because I want to feel on top of the world again.
Next week I'm going to start my training for a 5K. I plan on training Tues, Thurs, and Saturday's. So with crossfit, I'll be "working out" 6 days a week. I'd really like to start seeing the lbs start coming off. Or at least my clothes start getting bigger. I have seen some changes, but not as many as I'd like. I did let my eating slack a bit while my in-laws were in town. It's time to get back into strict paleo.
On another note, I got an invite to attend our crossfit's annual beach party. I want to go....kind of....but the scared part of me is like, "THERE IS NO WAY ON EARTH I'M GOING TO GET INTO A SWIMMING SUIT WITH ALL THE OTHER CROSSFITTERS". How can I?!?!?!?! Everyone in their bikini's with their lean arms and legs.........yeah right! I'm pissed at myself that I refuse to go to a function that I would like to go to because I'm too self conscious. It makes me physically ill just thinking about going. I don't belong in that group of people! I belong under a rock. (can you tell i'm not very positive today?)
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