What is wrong with me?! I feel like I'm in a mental and physical fog. I feel depressed and moody. I don't know if it's stress about my husband's job change, financial problems or what. I didn't go to crossfit on Monday because of my horrible sunburn. On Wednesday it looked like this....
I can't even describe the pain I was in. Nothing I put on it helped. I had to take Ibuprofen throughout the day just to get by. A friend called me and told me to try yellow mustard. To slather it on and let it dry. It sounded insane, but I was desperate enough to give it a go. Within 20 minutes most of the pain had gone away. Hurray! I didn't even care that I smelled like a walking deli. Today I was finally able to wear a bra again, so I went to crossfit. I will go again tomorrow. At least I'll be able to get in two workouts this week. Not what I was hoping for, but it is what it is.
I felt super run down during my workout. Almost like I was starting all over again. I felt weak, sick to my stomach, and just mentally not with it. Ugh! I hope this feeling is short lived, because I want to feel on top of the world again.
Next week I'm going to start my training for a 5K. I plan on training Tues, Thurs, and Saturday's. So with crossfit, I'll be "working out" 6 days a week. I'd really like to start seeing the lbs start coming off. Or at least my clothes start getting bigger. I have seen some changes, but not as many as I'd like. I did let my eating slack a bit while my in-laws were in town. It's time to get back into strict paleo.
On another note, I got an invite to attend our crossfit's annual beach party. I want to go....kind of....but the scared part of me is like, "THERE IS NO WAY ON EARTH I'M GOING TO GET INTO A SWIMMING SUIT WITH ALL THE OTHER CROSSFITTERS". How can I?!?!?!?! Everyone in their bikini's with their lean arms and legs.........yeah right! I'm pissed at myself that I refuse to go to a function that I would like to go to because I'm too self conscious. It makes me physically ill just thinking about going. I don't belong in that group of people! I belong under a rock. (can you tell i'm not very positive today?)