Yesterday I attended our crossfit's first Hearts and Barbell class. I was insanely nervous. All day I kept telling myself that attending this class was a joke. I was a nobody. It wasn't for me. It was for a true athlete. Negative thought after negative thought all day long. I was a relatively small class. They only allow the 1st 12 people that sign up to attend.
I was shaking in my boots when I walked through those doors last night. Again, I feel pretty secure in my 9:30am class....but the evening classes I don't know anyone and feel like it's day one all over again. I signed in, got my kiddos settled into the child area, used the restroom, and started stretching. Everyone had proper lifting shoes but me. Ugh, I hate being the only person who doesn't fit in.
Well the workout was killer, but definitely in a good way. Derek mentioned at the beginning of the class that it was ok to stop a take a breather if things got too intense. Much to my surprise I was able to keep up with the group. BOOYA! Now I was lifting the lightest amount of weight, but who freaking cares. I went, I conquered my fear of the unknown, and I finished the class. I really really liked it. I'm looking forward to going next Tuesday night as well.
We did a ton of hang squat snatches. These get easier as your form gets better. Once you get the hang of them, you feel a little bit bad ass. =)
I love using the barbell more than almost anything else at crossfit. I think I will continue with this new class. I am SOOOO incredibly sore today that I'm going to use today to rest and heal and then will go to my regular crossfit class on Thursday and Friday.
Oh and I must say that going to class in the morning has another advantage. Last night while I was there I noticed that as it got darker and darker outside that all the windows started acting like mirrors and everytime I passed a window I could see my awful reflection. Inside I do not feel the way I look on the outside. I am getting anxious for my outside to catch up to my thinner mental self.